The distance is nothing when one has a motive.

This is the spot:—how mildly does the sun
Shine in between the fading leaves! the air
In the habitual silence of this wood
Is more than silent: and this bed of heath,
Where shall we find so sweet a resting-place?
Come!—let me see thee sink into a dream
Of quiet thoughts,—protracted till thine eye
Be calm as water when the winds are gone
And no one can tell whither.—my sweet friend!
We two have had such happy hours together
That my heart melts in me to think of it.

                 - Travelling, William Wordsworth

 

Writing has always been my motivation, my passion. Yet, I've been an enabler of my own fears, I've allowed the fear of not living up to my own expectations to control me for far too long. I've accomplished so much more than what I ever thought I would in my short 21 years. I've had writing published at a young age, I've over come my own mental health issues, I was accepted into a far better university than what I ever imagined… And now because of my hard work I've overcome another hurdle. I've been accepted to study at the University of South Carolina for a year.

It has not been easy, yet this next year is going to be my biggest challenge yet. The only thing that has got me through everything has been the love and support I have received from my family. Despite the separations of parents, and the different paths we have all chosen, the love my near and extended family show me is something everyone should envy. Leaving them is going to be hard.

But I'm not a quitter, I've chosen this as a challenge and I am going to embrace it with every fibre of my being. Despite the cliche, this year is about finding myself. That includes the things I will discover in the different places I will travel to, the ideas for stories that I'll develop on the way,  the food I'm going to be able to imagine the taste of for the next 50 years, or even the sexual escapades I'm bound to regret.

There's now a week until I'll be on that plane… and I can't wait.

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